Hello, hello, missed me? Yeah well life happened and had to deal with some stuff. I have been asked when I feel like having baby number dos, and while Dines and I have discussed it and he has had some good points as to why […]
Hi guys, long time and no post. Well last week we returned from 16 days in Spain, and boy did I need a week to relax. Getting back into the normal routine can be kind of hard. I also started school again, or well I do the 22nd of August but it didn’t mean I couldn’t do the introduction assignment. Now I just have to do two normal assignments this week and on to a relaxing weekend. So back to Spain, it was lovely and warm. The food was amazing and it was just lovely getting away from everything. The last week we were there, my husbands parents joined us, which is always nice.
This vacation also marked our first date night, Cas got babysat by his Farmor and Farfar while Dines and I went out to eat. We have been to a wedding before without him, but this was just us. It was nice, remembering all the good things about each other. When you are parents, we can sometimes forget to maintain our relationship and I felt that date night was a nice way to help us remember that we are also a couple and our whole world shouldn’t just be about Cas. I know it sounds selfish and I might get mum shamed, but when Can grows up and moves out. It will only be Dines and I, if we haven’t maintained a relationship, we will just be two people living together who has a child.
Cas loved Spain, before we left he started walking. But in Spain it took a wild turn, he followed everyone. He loved the beach most of all, it ended up being a struggle to get him home from the beach because he enjoyed the water and playing in the sand with Dines. Dines also enjoyed playing in the sand with Cas and play in the water with him. I’m scared of the ocean so I didn’t join that part, but I got to play in the pool with him. We played shark, he didn’t get it and I think he thinks I’m weird.
I loved the vacation, while we had a good grip on my PPD, there was one night that wasn’t good. I couldn’t get Cas to sleep and he started hitting me and scratching me. I ended up breaking down and really didn’t want to stay on vacation because for me that felt like defeat. So while the ugly cry was going on, Dines stepped up and took over. I felt like he shouldn’t and it was my responsibility to look after our son alone the whole vacation, and now I feel like an idiot for thinking that. Dines and I talked it over and that also helped mend our relationship. But all is better now, we are still taking it one day at a time. On sunday it’s our FIRST anniversary and I can’t wait! But I will post more on that later.
For now my loves.
Today, I decided to write about something close to heart. Something I rarely share with people, only people close to me know, which is I suffer from Post-Partum Depression. People who don’t have children or never had to deal with PPD try to understand. But […]