The first month.

The first month has gone by fast since I gave birth and I feel like I should be tired, right? Having a newborn and a toddler means you should be tired and lacking sleep. Something we actually aren’t, but it can change so I’m just enjoying my sleep right now.

Instead I feel hyper and want to go running and swimming, maybe it’s all the energy from when I was bedridden that’s starting to come out. Either way, I am slowly getting back into the world and finding the energy to hang out with people.

As for Cas adjusting? We had a few days where he was upset with me, in love with Lyanna and Dines. It is alright because I keep reminding myself that in six months, she won’t need me as much and I can go back to my normal with Cas. so right now I am planning fun stuff for me and Cas to do from March. I am so excited to spend one on one with him without thinking about having to hurry home.

I have started having Lyanna in a sling, that way I can do a lot more and my hands are free. I find that a lot easier than putting her down or having her in my arms all the time. Also a good way to make sure no one bloody grabs her from me and sits with her for hours while she sleeps.

Overall, I think we have been lucky. Sure it is NOT always easy, we have bad days. When I say we, I mean Cas and I. We are like two stubborn shits who want the last say, and that can cause friction. But we get past it and decide to be friends. As for Lyanna, she’ll be as stubborn and I’m already mentally preparing myself for that.

Love, Karina