Date night! My, oh my, something that has been missed and needed! After all the sickness, after all the stress, it’s nice to be able to go out to eat and relax with Dines.
Now I’m not going to pretend our marriage is perfect. Cause it isn’t. We argue, we are both stubborn, which I believe to be a good thing but also my worst trait but sexy on Dines. Means he knows what he wants and just works hard for it, where I am more, stubborn but also a total shithead. There’s that. But, in every relationship there’s insecurities and fears that will forever stay in the back of your mind. What mine are? Cheating or having another secret family. That second one doesn’t make total sense and I think I have been on reddit too much. Dines’ are, leaving him because he plays too many video games. THAT is the dumbest reason to leave someone and I wouldn’t do that, even though I’m salty that I can’t play PUBG. I play WoW instead.
but relationships are tricky, doesn’t matter if you are the Queen of England or a homeless married couple. There’s always some stage where it just seems like shit, with a topping of shit. But communication is key! And Sometimes it sucks and you just want to give up, without really putting an effort in. But then you have those couples that went to workshops and couples therapy, that didn’t make it. And that’s alright because they can look back and say “at least we tried” – where if I was in there situation and had given up without trying “Eh, well.. We didn’t bother.” Thing is, well we had it rough, we couldn’t give up, not for us, because we do really love each other and he brings out the best in me and I hope I do in him too, but also for Cas. I grew up in a broken home, I grew up with parents hating each other and in a very toxic environment. So I would rather work super hard on my marriage then throw in the towel and call it a day. And I’m glad we decided to fight, everyday.
Thing is, when you’re a well adjusted couple and you have a child, it throws off the balance you made together. Curve balls, am I right?! I am kidding, a child isn’t a curve ball. It’s a huge canon ball that you and your partner made because you thought netflix and chill was a good idea. Or is it hulu and rimjob now? Ah I can never keep up. But at least I don’t still go around and say “bro”. Just stop that NOW. No matter if you are 18, 23, 36 and so on, marriage is not easy and no love, you don’t have all the answers, so please stop pretending your marriage is perfect. It’s fucking annoying. I can say that I’m a dick and so is Dines sometimes, mostly I’m a dick and he is just Dines. But I’m lucky to have him and he is damn lucky to have found someone so funny as me.